What do I do?

I am still haunted by the doctors visit I had on Monday. I can not seem to shake the terrible sense of shock. I have been given so many different maybes in the past but this one just won't settle. He (my doc) set me down and told me he need to discuss something with me. He had not mentioned it before because he did not want to alarm me. Well I guess I should be thankful for that. He also told me I should start thinking about getting my home ready for the changes I may be facing (not to reassuring huh?) How do you get ready for that? I have been doing a little research about ALS these past few days and it only scares me more. I find myself wondering how I am going to be able to take care of my family. I am trying to act as though this isn't bothering me so they will not worry, but I don't know how much longer I can. It's hard to hide your worry from the ones closest to you. I am glad I have you all out there to talk to, it gives me a way to try and cope. Thank you to all my blogger friends for your kind support. I don't know what I'd do without you . Please remember me in your prayers that I will be found doing what the Lord has for me to do and that He will give me the strength to cope.