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I am here.

Yesterday was a disaster! There was a mix up with the schedule and my doc wasn't in (what brain was missing when they told me to come in?) So they seen the pain I was in and sent me to the ER. Now don't get me wrong the ER can be a very very good place to be if the cause is warranted. But I have come to realize that if you are a woman , have a history of migraines and have a head ache they immediately turn the lights off in your room give you a pain shot and then ignore anything you have to say. I was truly grateful for the pain shot but still have no answers. They took a urine sample ( then told me it was clean, you know I needed them to tell me I don't do drugs lol) took blood and then just dismissed me like I was some kind of whiner or something. I'm not sure what John said to then but the doctor sent social workers in to see if I was being abused. I said what!?! I am going blind have a horrible head no bruises or broken bones what makes me look like I been beat on? My husband just wants you all to listen when we say this is something different. I'm not sure I am what's going to happen but I have to go to the neurologist the first of the week, this time he said there would be no mix up with the scheduling. In the mean time if you know of any doctors out there who are like doctor House and are willing to help plz let me know. I am tired of getting no where. I have been on so many different migraine meds and none of them are helping I am not sure why they will not listen and look for the real cause. I guess they are gonna wait till I need the white tip cane before I get any of them to understand. I hope I am strong enough to endure this. I know they may take away my pride and get me to beg but they will not take away my faith in God and the hope that the Lord will touch me. All I hope for is that I will be able to face what every hurtle that is placed in front of me. maybe this is my mountain to climb and if it is I am going to take it one step at a time and tie a knot in the end of the rope and hold on. The devil is not going to win! Just remember me in your prayers that I will be a light for our Lord and that I will have the strength to face this.

Remeber me today plz

I am heading to the doctor in a few minutes. I am sorry for neglecting my posts recently. I am in tremendous pain. My headaches have returned with fury. My eye site is starting to be affected so if I type something that doesn't quite seem right I am sorry for that. I am hoping the doctors will find something today. I may be in the hospital for a while so if you don't hear from me soon you'll know why. I am so scared that I will go blind again. It is hard not knowing why this is happening. I am trying to get the doctors to understand that this is different from the migraines I have, but when I go in usually they don't want to listen. That is so aggravating. I can tell the difference and they need to listen. I am going to beg him today to do something, because this pain is so intense that I can't take it. I went to my family doc yesterday and he gave me a pain shot to get me thru until today but this morning I am in tears. I will probably have a lumbar puncture and MRI and I am not looking forward to them. But if it will give us answers I will not fight. Please remember in in your prayers that the Lord will give me the strength to endure this trail I am facing. It is so hard to be dignified when you are in so much pain. I hope to be back soon but if not don't forget me lol.

Happy Anniversary to My wonderful Husband!!

16 years ago I went on a first date, (one that I had dreamed about for many years)and 14 years ago today I became Mrs. John Vest. I have been in love with John (aka hubby and DH) since I was 9 years old. He is 9 years older than I so he didn't know I existed other than his sister's boyfriends annoying little sis lol. After many years had passed his sister Mona brought us together. I had thought of John throughout the years and wondered how he was the love I felt for him was still hidden in my heart. I was leery of seeing John back then because I was afraid he would break my heart. I am glad I chanced it. While I will not say our life has been a bed of roses (any one who says that can not be real every one has trials) I can say it has been worth every moment. I am so lucky to have him. He is such a good father and loving husband. He has given me a good life and a happy home, what more could a woman want? John and I eloped (it was so romantic). He picked our day so he would never forget, we were married in 1995 and the date is 1-9-95, I thought how sweet that is. He has never forgotten either I am ashamed to say I have though (bad wife). I would like to take this time to tell him just how much I do appreciate him and how utterly in love I am with him! He has filled my life so completely. He asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I could not think of anything, he has spoiled me so. I mean we are not rich by any means, you know no million dollar cruises or $500 toilet paper (why?). I am so grateful he is standing by me thru all this drama with the doctors and my medical problems. That in itself is enough. So here goes the mushy stuff.

John I love you so completely. Thank you for the years of happiness and tenderness you have given me. You have surpassed anything I could have imagined when you asked me to be your wife. You are such a wonderful husband and friend. I could not ask for anything more.

This family needs our Prayers

Please remember this family in your prayers. The sorrow they are feeling words cannot describe for little 4 year old Coleman Scott has went to be with our Lord. He lost the battle with cancer. our heart felt sympathy goes out to his family. I hope you can find peace in knowing his suffering has passed and he will now be at peace. Joining our Lord in heaven forevermore in no pain or sorrow. I will not pretend to understand your pain, I can only offer my deepest sympathies and prayers. May God ease your pain and let the wonderful memories of Coleman's life fill your heart with joy. You can read Coleman's story here->http://www.carepages.com/carepages/ColemanScott

The family has requested instead of flowers you may make a donation in Coleman Scott's memory to:

Ronald McDonald House

Curesearch

or The Hospice House of Fort Dodge, Iowa

What's your twitter temperature?

I came across this site just a few minutes ago. It's kinda neat to see what your twitter temperature is. here's the link-> http://twitemperature.com/
It's says mine is I'm volcanic 147 lol what's yours?

I am still kicking.

Sorry I haven't posted for a while. I miss everyone. I have been under the weather lately and just haven't felt up to writing alot. I did manage to get a couple of reviews done for pamdot though. I am still waiting on a few of y test results to come back to clinically diagnose the MS, but the doctor says that is what I have (you know all the need to be on paper stuff is what we are waiting on before he can start e on meds). I got really discouraged for a while because I can not get out that much. Of course the weather has helped that tremendously. You don't want to get out when it is so cold lol. I guess I got cabin fever or something. I need to try to get out and walk though. I did find out that my weight problem is from my thyroid. That at least gave me some good news, I mean I am not over weight because I eat to much lol. I am starting meds for that and the docs say I should see an improvement very quickly. Let's hope anyway. I am trying to save up money to get a treadmill. I have problems getting out and not being able to get back, so DR suggested I get one and that way I could walk and not worry about getting stuck way away from help. Seems like a good idea, but those things are expensive. I tried one of those ones that are not motor driven and with my muscle problems I can't seem to get them going. So I don't think wasting money on one of those kind would be a good idea. So I got me a jar and marked it walking fund (hubby says he hopes it doesn't walk off lol). I am placing all my change in it and when I get enough I will head to the store. Good thing it is a gallon jar lol. I have another ready cause somehow one doesn't seem like it's going to be enough. I thought about checking out our local goodwill to see if they may have one. sometimes you can find really good deals there. Maybe at one point I will be contacted to do a review for one. That would be such a blessing, but not gonna hold my breath lol. So if there are any companies that would like me to feel free to contact me I would be more than happy to do a full review. I am truly grateful that I can do the things I am able to do though. I know the Lord has really blessed me, if it were not for His grace I would be nothing. The girls and I have started a new hobby. We have been making shower gel, hair conditioner, candles and wax tarts. Nothing fancy with the candles just some tea lights. I made some that smell like popcorn balls. hubby loves the smell, he likes it when he walks up to the door that the scent greets you as he says. My step daughter Crystal is trying to get me to start a shop, but I don't know. I may do something like an online shop at one point but for now it is nice to share the time with my girls. It is a nice break from worry about the problems we face. I am so blessed with my girls (actually all my children), we have such a good relationship. They are so much fun to work with, not to mention shop. I took them to Catos the other day, Sarah got a gift card for Christmas. She found her the most adorable top and shoes, Kayla got her a couple of pairs of jeans and a cute top too. They have really nice clearance sales, for that I was grateful. We ended up spending only $35 nice on the wallet lol. We had so much fun. Sarah worries that it gets to hard on me, but it is so worth it to spend time with them for they will be grown and on their own all to quickly! I really dread that time, but it is going to happen whether I want it to or not. So I cherish every moment I can. Please remember us in your prayers. Hopefully I will have some good news next time I post. I hate to bring bad news all the time.

Reviews and Giveaways site.

I am transitioning all my reviews and giveaways to my other site. I am going to be posting here just on a much more personal level. I will still post the links here but it will on just to direct you to the Pamdot posts. I love blogger and this site, but I can not organize the items as I would like so I have started the other site so I can keep things simpler. I am starting the long road with my health and have decide to chronical it here. I will appologize ahead of time for delays in my site updates. If you haven't been following before now, I have RA and at times (especially in cold weather) I have trouble typing. I also have Relapsing Remitting MS, at times my muscles do not do what my brain tell them to do. I do not the brain lesions yet so I am stuck waiting to start meds for the MS. I will be posting when I can and hope you will be patient with me. I want to thank all my wonderful readers for you kind thoughts and prayers, You are an awesome group of people. here is the link to Pamdot->http://pamdot.ning.com. Please bookmark it on your browser. I hope you decide to join the groups and forum. I am also open to any ideas you may have for the site.

A Special Thank you for Making a Little's boys Christmas

I would like to extend a special thank you to the 5 minutes for Mom team. My cousin was sent a present from the under the tree program they had going. Thank you so much for making a little boy smile. This is truly the Christmas spirit. It is such a great gift to give happiness to some one so small and innocent. Again thank you for your kindness!

The winner is:

The winner of the RS Design $60 gift card is :
Number 4 Melissa of Mel's Mel's World said...
I love RS designs and have worked with Revka in the past...she's awesome! I love the Happy Days (Bubbles) and so many other designs they have!I would love to be a part of your give away...thanks!Melissa in Mel's World

You have72 hours to contct me or I will pick a new winner. An email has been sent to the address in your comment. Congrats to you!!!

Brand new site launched

hey head over and check out my new site at http://pamdot.ning.com/. It's called PamDot. I am still going to have New and Old but it will become more of a personal blog. PamDot is going to be alot of everything, that is where I am going to post my reviews and contests. Also I'll have a chance to chat with you. Hurry over you could be one of the first members there is also a contest link for a $10,ooo Best Buy shoppng spree!!!

We got our tree up!

We put our tree up finally. We are doing very many decoration done this year. Hopefully I will feel better soon. But couldn't resist doing a little. Hopefully it doesn't look to bad lol. I am a nutcracker nut. I love collecting them. So I found the ornaments at a craft shop, I was so happy to get them. Most of the nutcracker ornaments are to heavy for a artificial tree. When we got the decorations out of storage, I had a horrible surprise. A rat had chewed up my tree skirt and destroyed my lights. I was so upset! At least it didn't get my cloth ornaments too.

This is our version of "stocking hung by the ...with care". No fireplace for us, I found this stand online and thought it was adorable. Sarah helped me paint the stockings with our names and outlines. I thought we done a pretty good job. I got them after Christmas last year at a steal I paid a quarter a piece for them. I love the after Christmas clearance!!

Bucky got this snowman for me for my birthday. I love it. He plays jingle bells and dances to sound. John hates it but what does he know lol.

If we decide to do any more decorating I will get the pics posted. But I doubt if we will. I am just happy to get what we have up this year done. Usually we go all out decorating but just can't seem to find the energy to do it this year. I hope everyone has a happy and joyous Christmas this year. And truly understands the meaning of the holidays. The birth of our Lord and Saviour. I know historians say Jesus was not born on Dec. 25th. That may be true and may not be, we have no way of knowing for sure. But it is the day we have set aside to celebrate his birth and that's good enough for me.

Have you heard about mouseprint.org?

I came across this site today and am glad I did! With the economy the way it is, we have to watch our dollars. So reading labels to get the best deals are a must. Of course we all have our favorite things we just can't give up right? I am guilty of just grabbing things at times with the motto "I've bought this before" and not paying attention. But some companies are trying to fool us. They are downsizing products in a sneaky way. The packages seems the same but the ounces or sheet sizes are not. Some even add a fancy new gadget to take the attention away from this fact. While the amount is shrinking the price is not! Mouseprint.org is a site that tells us just what products to watch out for. Personally I think these companies have a right to downsize these products but should not try to hide it from the consumers! We have enough to contend with without having companies trying to stick it to use. I say be up front about what you are doing and your costumers will understand. What do you think?

It's a Boy

We are proud parents! Meet Harley, he's the newest member of our house. We haven't had a cat for quite a while so the girls are thrilled. What prompted us to get a cat? John got my Christmas decoration out of storage (under the house) and my tree skirt is in shreads and out of 5 strings of lights for the tree we retrieved 3 1/2 strings all in short sections. RATS! literally rats, where our home is now was a hay field last year so the pests made our new home their own. I was mortified, it took me years for find the perfect tree skirt (I am so picky that way). The traps didn't work and I don't want to poisin them due to the other animals around. We have 2 doberman pichers. So we added little Harley to our family. It will be a while before he can earn his keep but getting him small we can train him to fit in. Plus he is so cute who could resist? We named im Harley because he purrs like a motorcycle (get it?). The only down fall is he was used to 4 brothers and sisters so now we are his play toys. My feet will never be the same again.

The winners of the Noevir Travel set are..->

Thru Random.org without further ado here are you 5 winners.

Random Integer Generator

Here are your random numbers:

55 70 45 62 12

Timestamp: 2008-11-29 14:04:56 UTC

#12 Kimberly
#45 Jessica
#55 micaela6955
#62 Mommyhood is Thankless
#70 Roxy

Congrats be on the lookout for your emails. You will need to contact me no later than Monday Dec. 1st or I will have to choice a new winner. Thanks for playing.

What do I do?

I am still haunted by the doctors visit I had on Monday. I can not seem to shake the terrible sense of shock. I have been given so many different maybes in the past but this one just won't settle. He (my doc) set me down and told me he need to discuss something with me. He had not mentioned it before because he did not want to alarm me. Well I guess I should be thankful for that. He also told me I should start thinking about getting my home ready for the changes I may be facing (not to reassuring huh?) How do you get ready for that? I have been doing a little research about ALS these past few days and it only scares me more. I find myself wondering how I am going to be able to take care of my family. I am trying to act as though this isn't bothering me so they will not worry, but I don't know how much longer I can. It's hard to hide your worry from the ones closest to you. I am glad I have you all out there to talk to, it gives me a way to try and cope. Thank you to all my blogger friends for your kind support. I don't know what I'd do without you . Please remember me in your prayers that I will be found doing what the Lord has for me to do and that He will give me the strength to cope.

May I proudly Introduce-->

I would like to introduce you to Mr. Stanley Matthews. Stanley was born July 21, 1939. He weighed a whopping 13 pounds. He was the first born to Mr and Mrs Fred Matthews. I miss my daddy so much! My birthday is coming up, I guess is made me realize how much I do really miss him. I love you Daddy!

I Still Miss You

This yearning in my heart

This confusion in my mind

The words left unspoken

Haunts me all the time

Everyday I watch pass by

With an emptiness in my life

And a hole in my heart

Where only you belong

Look who came to visit

It's been to long it seems since our grandson came to visit! He is growing so fast. Lucas Issiah was born Dec 12th. Can't believe he'll be 2 soon. We have 3 other grandsons Tyler 12, Braxton 9, and Taden 6. I am hoping I can get some new photos of them to post.

Here I am dirty face and all. He was saying "papaw pop" You guest if he is a true papaws boy when it comes to pepsi!